Monday, March 28, 2011

Hold on Hope

It is cruel and unfair how we're fooled into believing in the absolute invulnerability of our parents. It is when they actually need our help that we realise that now we've grown up and they've grown old.

I wish I had learned to be more independent earlier on in life. This wud not have been so painful. Perhaps, it is a lesson that is best learned this way, heart-wrenching though it may be.

One cannot exercise control on fate. No matter how strongly you will your love to protect those you love, it cannot.

It is the most humbling thing to feel so completely helpless. Like S. told me, "Every little girl has to grow up one day." I just wish it wudnt have been this tough on me. Or perhaps, I am too weak to bear this cross without crumbling like this.

I am grateful tonight that this blog is actually this therapeutic for me. I'm a lot calmer now that I've typed this out.

13 comments:

Sakshi said...

Hugs to you lil girl!! Like you said hold on to hope! Whatever it is, It will pass. Take care :)

Headstrong said...

So sorry to find a sadness, a frustration has entered your life, and that of your family. Thinking of you. Take good care.
All the best to you and yours,
Headstrong

Riddhi G.D said...

It is indeed scary. Good luck, and lots of good thoughts to you and your parents. Blogging always helps. You'll get through the trial you're facing, and come out stronger.

The Girl With The Blue Earring said...

I feel comforted knowing that there's others like me. This echoed with me word for word.

Anonymous said...

all will be well inshallah :-)

T.

ramya sriram said...

hugs and prayers. you'll get through this. stay strong!

pankaj said...

indeed! the shell of love that parents create around you is incredible. you're a thoughtful and strong person. i am sure u will come out on top of whatever situation it is.

The Kid In The Front Row said...

This is strangely heartbreaking.

And it's a tough part of life. When the kids and the parents switch roles. Take comfort in the fact, your parents had it with their parents too.

JD said...

Knowing you for this long, I know you're strong enough. There's not much more I can say, except that when you come out of it on the other side, you'd have grown up in the true sense :)

Philophobic said...

Growing up is hard.

Philophobic said...

Growing up is hard.

Mohit said...

There was a time when my parents used to ask me for my hand while crossing the road and my ego never let me take their help. And now when I offer a hand, they refuse.

Antara said...

You're a strong girl and whatever it is that troubles you will be gone before long. =)

I trust in you.